Downsized

Both physically and employedly.  Is that a word?  Well either way, my company let me go today and I am officially unemployed.  It was a mass downsizing and I fell on the wrong side of the sword.

Bernanke

OK, so I have an MBA and in MBA school there are loads of finance and economics classes.  I never really planned to have a deep interest in the economy but even before the current meltdown, I found myself fascinated by the ebbs and flows of economies.  Because of this, I follow the actions of the fed fairly closely.  Well last night, it wound its way into my subconscious in the form of a naughty dream involving Fed Chief Bernanke who was at any point morphing into DJ and then back.  

Needless to say, I woke up a little disturbed. :)

MEME

This MEME was taken from She's a Rebel  Who totally rocks!  Read her blog.

1. Where is your cell phone? In my pocket on vibrate (giggle)

2. Where is your significant other? In Arizona, sigh.  But I get to see DJ in 3 weeks!

3. Your hair color? Dark Brown

4. Your mother? Is the number one reason I had WLS

5. Your father? Wonderfully goofy.  Sweet and a little broken. Fiercely protective and loyal.

6. Your favorite thing? DJ.  Is he a thing?  Doesn't matter, he is still my favorite.

7. Your dream last night? For once, I don't remember

8. Your dream/goal? To live in the same state with DJ and to be at a healthy weight. 

9. The room you’re in? The living room. 

10. Your hobby? Reading really, politics, novels, history, you name it, I absorb it.

11. Your fear? Gaining weight. (stole this one from She's a Rebel, but I wholeheartedly agree)

12. Where do you want to be in six years? In a city with DJ working for a company I believe in in a position that lets me use my brain and creativity.

13. Where were you last night? Home.  I live in the middle of a cornfield.  I am home A LOT.

14. What you’re not? A republican/conservative.

15. One of your wish list items? A total body lift (giggling again)

16. Where you grew up? Illinois, Hawaii

17. The last thing you did? peed

18. What are you wearing? Black hoodie with blue pajama pants with black cats on them.  (YES, I am aware that cats on clothes is lame.  No need to tell me via comments :) )

19. Your T.V.? I big and on the wall.  A graduation present from the P's.

20. Your pet? A cat named Modigliani.  He's a jerk.

21. Your computer? runs hot.

22. Your mood? Tired.  Weather changes make me want to hibernate. 

23. Missing someone? DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ DJ 

24. Your car? 2008 VW Jetta.  Black, beautiful, sleek....my first new car.

25. Something you’re not wearing? a cowboy hat.  No think about the outfit I described before.  Only thing that could make it lamer?  A cowboy hat.

26. Favorite store? Target

27. Your Summer? Was probably the last time I will have a summer off until I retire.

28. Love someone? Yeppers.  not many but all of them deeply.

29. Your favorite color? Purple

30. Last time you laughed? Today at my Cube mate.  That crazy girl cracks me up. 

31. Last time you cried? Last weekend.  Almost lost my grandfather.  He is slowly getting better now thank goodness.

Wolf Whistle

My first. :)  I know most women are annoyed by them, but today, I was flattered.

As I walked out of my office building, these two men in a car that was stopped at the stop light were looking my way.  I thought nothing of it.  Then the driver honked the horn.  I looked over and he waved, then the passenger waved too.  I looked around to see who they were waving at, but it was just me on the street.  Then the driver rolled down the window and shouted, "Hey sexy mami, give me your number."  He was talking to ME! 

Now, don't get me wrong, I would NEVER respond to that kind of come on (I mean who does? Come on guys, what are you expecting shouting out of your car window? REALLY?)  But, I was flattered in a weird way.  It just made me blush and giggle a little.  And my ego was boosted a bit. Thanks random driver man!

Boobs

Yep, I am talking about boobs in this entry.  I was totally prepared for my boobs to shrink as I lost weight.  I am now down 120 lbs and so I went this weekend for a new bra fitting.  Guess what?  I went UP a cup size?  WTH?  My band size went down by 4 inches, but my cup size increased. Crazy.  I am not complaining though.  Nope not me.

I have big boobs :)  Well I still have lots of stuff that is big, but at least that is the one part that is considered good when its big.  

sorry for the absence

My grandfather is very ill and I have been driving home to St Louis as often as possible.  

This is the first major stressful event I have encountered since I had WLS and my old familiar friend food is not there for comfort.  In fact, It is the opposite, I cannot eat.  In fact, I have lost 10 lbs in since last Thursday.  I have a call in to my surgeon to find out what I should take to help me keep food down so hopefully that will help.  

In the meantime, I think I need to find new stress relievers since my friends Ben and Jerry moved out of town.  Any suggestions?

If food is the way to a mans heart, then

...shoes are the way to mine.  

I love shoe shopping and since losing so much weight, I have found that not only has my clothing size gone down, but so has my shoe size.  So I desperately need new shoes for work because i am walking out of my heels that I have now.  And it is only time until I break my neck.  So here are my new babies:

Both are Born brand.  They are super comfy and last forever.  Investments really. :)

I don't know why shoe shopping makes me so happy.  I swear it releases endorphins!  The shoe salesguy was also VERY cute (young but cute) and he said that the boots made me look "rockin."  That helped my mood too.  

Also, those boots are normal boots.  Made to fit normal ankles.  and GUESS WHAT!?!?!  THEY FIT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  WOO-HOO!  "Normal" I LOVE that Freakin' word!

Might as well face it, I'm addicted to

Click 

This stuff is so yummy, but kind of expensive.  It has become a crutch for me.  I whip one up at 2:30 3ish in the afternoon at work and I buzz through the rest of the day.

well, today I decided that one every day was too often and it should be reserved for afternoons when my butt is really dragging (save me money and calories).  So I did not have one today.  The afternoon took FOREVER to end.  And I was SO hungry by the time I got home.  Usually this stuff peps me up and keeps me from afternoon snacking.  I cam so close today to hitting the vending machine.

Oh well, might as well give up and just pay the $ and drink the stuff.  It is healthier than breaking down and buying peanut M&Ms from the vending machine and passing out at my desk from a food coma.  ARGH!

Miss Kathy Griffin and Vice President Spears

was gracious enough to land in a corn field and entertain the Iowan masses yesterday.

The best "joke" she told?  reading word for word the transcript of Palin's conversation with Kissinger.  She said that she couldn't make it any funnier than it already was.  So true, so sad and so true.

For any of my readers who might think she is cute and it doesn't matter if the VP is smart and capable.  Remember that McCain is already ancient and the probability that Palin would become President is a lot higher than the probability that Biden would.  Scary.  

VOTE OBAMA!

Broken stall

Well folks, my stall is officially over!  I was not worried about this one too much because I have been through a few before and I know how it works.  But this time I did something different, I actively worked to break it early.  I ramped up my exercise routine significantly and started drinking water like it was my job.  And sure enough within two days, the scale starting going down.  

Now I have been exercising all along, but I have admittedly been pretty lazy lately and just doing the same old routine and not pushing myself at all.  So I guess my body wasn't getting the same benefit.  I started working out a lot harder and just a bit longer.  I am exhausted this week because of it, but it feels really good.  I am sleeping really well and I feel stronger!  

So I didn't lose any weight for almost 2 weeks, then BOOM! 5 lbs in 4 days.  Weird huh?  I made up all my lost time super fast.  I now know that I need to make sure to keep up with my hydration as well as challenge my body by not getting lazy with the exercise.

cyber-family

that's what you all are!

Thanks to Amber whose great advice got me through my weird engineer drama.

I did go to lunch with him, but at that lunch I told him, after listening to his weird story, that from now on, our interactions are to be strictly professional.

He is giving me the evil eye at work, but so far so good! No emails, no texts, all clear.