Tuesday, May 6, 2008


Yes, it deserves all caps! I am at a stall. I haven't lost anything for almost two weeks. I am hoping that it is due to the meds I am currently on. I am on some antibiotics (for stomach bacteria that can cause ulcers) and a big regime of pepto bismal (drs orders) until this Friday. It seems the stall correlates with beginning this medicine. But then again maybe I am looking for a scapegoat so i don't have to admit that I am a failure.

But I am so frustrated. I am exercising, and not eating! I hate my F****** body. I feel like it is the enemy and I just want to scream! I am Amber, I can do anything I put my mind to! I am smart, capable and determined! How is it that this is defeating me? AAGGHH! I just want to punch something.

1 comment:

Amber said...

Maybe you *should* punch something! Really, it can be super cathartic!

Have you talked with your doctor regarding this stall? How about the nutritionist at your surgeon's office?

I'm so sorry you're hitting a bad spot. But you know what, you ARE smart, capable and determined. And you WILL win.

This too shall pass.

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