Saturday, May 10, 2008


So I decided onthe 2nd dress (black top, flower bottom) It is immensely more flattering. And these are the shoes I ordered to go with it. My roommate assures me that silver shoes will make my dress completely day time appropriate. So I will be returning the white flowered dress to Nordstrom. I really liked the White dress, but it hits me at my fattest part and accentuates the fact that I am STILL FAT! But you know what? For the first time ever, I don't give a d**n! Not one bit. I know next year this time, I will be NORMAL and healthy. And that is all I can ask for.

On a similar note, I need advice on how to break my addiction to the scale. It calls to me the way pizza and wings use to. I did not weigh myself today and now I am itching to run downstairs and hop on the scale to see if I lost anything in the past two days. It really is a sickness. You know I've heard that people hop from one addiction to another, so what if mine went from food to micromanaging my weight? I think about throwing it away, but I'd like to be able to check in from time to time, so i can't bring myself to throw it out. Am I weak or is this normal?


Amber said...

I am a total scale addict. Seriously. It's not healthy. lol BUT, I haven't found a way to break the Just wanted you to know you are not alone. :D

She's A Rebel said...

Totally normal. Especially in the beginning when the pounds are falling fast and furious. It's hard not to think about it and it's harder still not to want to see those numbers. Personally, I don't think there's anything wrong with scale watching. In fact, I think it's a great habit to get into, because it will help you to train yourself to be aware of those numbers and CARE what they say.

When you get further and further out from surgery, you'll see a drastic slow down in the weight loss. For me, when that happened, the scale became less important...I went from daily weighing to every other day, to now I weigh myself maybe twice a week. Sometimes the whole week will go by and I'll realize that I haven't hopped on there to see what's up.

Don't worry about cross-addictions. I think if the seed gets planted in your brain you're more likely to foster it.

Just be you, do what makes you happy, focus on all the new energy you've got, how much better you feel, and all the joy that you're feeling as the weight falls off. Make new, healthy habits that will stay with you for life and enjoy this wonderful time!

Amber said...

TOTALLY NORMAL!!! I got on the scale daily for the first six months, then I allowed myself to get on it twice a week. In the between times, I would literally put it on the shelf on my closet so it wasn't easliy available!

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