PMS

Oh my God! My PMS is terrible since surgery! I was a wicked wicked girl when I was home visiting my parents last weekend. I was confrontational, impatient, and just awful. I could see myself behaving terribly, but i couldn't stop.

On my 5 hour drive home, my back start aching and sure enough as soon as i get home, boom, my friend arrives. I was warned that dropping weight releases tons of estrogen because it is stored in fat cells. What they didn't tell me was that estrogen = free range crazy.

Wowzie! I had some back-pedaling to do after the crazy fog lifted. but I tucked my tail between my legs and apologized.

God I hope this doesn't happen every month! I am going to have to lock myself in a cage in the basement, like a werewolf at full moon.

thank you!

to everyone who has posted comments here! They are so helpful. I feel like I have a small pack of guardian angels with me as I walk down this very scary path. Thank you Thank you!

I would like to be able to thank you all individually, but some of you are unreachable (Denise) ;)

So please send me your emails if you's like to.

eating update

Ok so eating is getting a bit easier. Maybe my pouch was just confused by the change.

However, until now, I have felt great, but these last three days I have been so exhausted. Even if I sleep enough. Could my lack of calories be catching up with me? Hopefully this is just a phase and I will get through it. This has come at a bad time though. I am finishing up my masters degree and all of the semester projects are due next week, so i am super busy this week. But all I want to do is NAP! Oh well, this is just another price to pay for health right? Well, I am off for a nap now, but not a long one - busy busy busy.

Blog crazy - actually all kinds of crazy

Ok, so I know I am posting like every other minute, but I wanted to get this out there.

I have just been given the green light to start eating some pureed/mechanically soft foods. my problem? I don't want anything. Foods sounds good, I get hungry, I cook something. I take one bite (i am not exaggerating) and I am done. I cannot force myself to eat any more. I am actually repulsed by the idea. By the time my appetite comes back 30-40 minutes later, my food is so cold it is inedible.

Has anyone else gone through this or have any advice for me? I know I need to eat, I am scared of becoming sick. I am taking my vitamins, but I feel like I take so many pills right now, they fill up my pouch too. AAHH! (sorry just a little frustrated)

lap

I am at a coffee house working on a terribly boring statistics memo. But here is the exciting part, my laptop is on my lap! Yep, I have a lap that is big enough for my computer to sit on. All the way! No weird balancing or anything. Woo-Hoo! I am easily amused, what can I say?

Also, I fit my big ol' bootie into size 5 (whatever the new sizes mean) Lane Bryant jeans today. I bought them by mistake about 5 months ago and couldn't even pull them up all the way back then. now, they slide on and actually probably are a bit too loose. I am a happy camper today. I will be posting pictures very soon. I don't think I look much different, but my clothes are telling me otherwise.

Its the little things...

So I have officially moved from "Super Obese" to "Extremely Obese"! Since I am no long "super" I guess I should stop wearing my cape.

One Month Check Up

I went today to my one month post-op check up with my surgeon. Almost everything went well except for the bloodletting! My veins just would not cooperate which led to me getting stuck three times! OUCH.

Oh and my dietitian told me I can't have tomatoes or crystal light or basically anything with citric acid for two more months! I love my Crystal Light, I am so sad now.

I did get permission to advance my diet though so I am looking forward to some scrambled egg!

Everyone was very pleased with my progress, so now I am on my own for two more months.

Yeah me it is my one month Surgiversary.