Promises Promises

OK folks, I promised to catch you up on my life, so here it goes:

• staying with my parents - hard to do at 30 yrs old
• Saw DJ last weekend - separating again is almost physically painful
• therefore: must find job in Phoenix or in a city within a few hours drive (if you know of any, holler!)
• weight loss stalled - creeping back to old habits with the fam and no exercise (shame on me)

So here is where the post begins.  Since I moved back (temporarily!) I have not worked out once! NOT ONCE!  I felt awful.  So three days ago i joined a gym.  Now since i don't plan to be here more than a couple of months, I do not want to sign a contract with one of the big fancy gyms and since the YMCA in my town costs as much per month as a suite at the Ritz Carlton, I joined the local grungy meathead gym.  This gym is designed for and frequented by big time body builder dudes.  I have gone every day since joining and I have not seen another woman there ever.  And the gym has at least 5 dozen different weight machines and 4, yes 4, cardio machines.  But meatheads don't do cardio, so I get them all to myself!  So it really works out, they use the weights, I use the cardio.  They give me funny looks, I put in my earbuds, blast some Pat Benetar and then blast some fat.  But in just three days I am already feeling better. Lost some weight again, getting back on track.  I just need to stick to it!

I promise I will expand on some of the other stuff later, but for now, my message is this.  WLS is not a fix all, I still need to work!

not dead

I am not dead, I think I am just depressed.  I promise to write more later and fill you all in.  I just have to organize my thoughts....so much drama.

back in Saint Louis

So since I was laid off, 5 months after starting my job, I decided to move back home to St Louis to conduct my job search.  

For two days after being laid off, I was inconsolable, but now I am over the shock and doing OK.  I have had a couple of bites on my resume, so I am feeling optimistic about finding another job.

In the meantime, I am able to spend quality time with my very sick grandfather and spend the holidays with my family.  

Also, I get to see DJ in 6 days.  We are spending a weekend in Chicago.  The trip was pre-paid before I got laid off so we might as well go through with the trip.  I am a little worried though because his mother has been having her famous "cardiac episodes" and hinting that she may be too sick for him to leave.  We both know that this is just her trick, so I don't think it will work, but nevertheless, it makes me nervous.  I really need to see him!

I promise to take loads of pics and update my blog with them!

Thank you to everyone who sent me comforting messages after I was laid off.  Thank you thank you!

Back to business

I am done with the political stuff and am promising i will return to my normal set of topics.

Which is what you ask?  Oh whatever is on my mind.  These days it has been a mixture of weight loss issues, unemployment, relationships, the economy and on and on.  A couple of people have messaged me asking me not to voice my opinion about politics since this blog's purpose was to follow my WLS progress.  While I understand your point, you must understand that I am a person, not just a WLS patient.  and with my humanity comes a infinite number of opinions, emotions and concerns.  This is my blog and I will write about whatever I choose because writing helps me release pent up emotions and as the name of the blog indicates, it is cathartic.

I don't think I was ever disrespectful or hurtful.  And I know that I have the right to my opinion.  So if you don't agree with me that is fine.  That is America, that is why we hold elections.  And the people spoke last night and we elected a new leader.  If you don't agree with me, then tell me why.  Lets talk about it!  But please DON'T ASK ME TO SHUT UP!

YES WE DID!

need I say more?